happy birthday

to you. i hope that this is the year when you will figure out what to do to make yourself happy. no, i don't want you around, but i do still want you to be who you want to be. so best wishes.

deeeeeelightful

i may have a lot of stitches in my face, and that may be painful, but someone decided to send me some lovely photos that just cheered me right up. so thanks to my bff, 'cause she's always looking out for my happiness. love!

when our intentions leak out to our history

today alone, i've had a few ex-flings or ex boyfriends tell me they had dreams about performing sexual acts with me. this is not an uncommon revelation over time, but in a single day or week or month, it seems a bit much. so two in one day... that's bizarre and i cannot help wondering if my own wishes are translating poorly in the universe to people who had a connection with me.

222. Great night.

222. Great night.

i promise in less than an hour, we will honestly go.

http://listen.grooveshark.com/s/Open/3o7aw2?src=5

i love...

people who can obey, people who treat me like i am important.

So.... It sucks to be

So.... It sucks to be you, right? Knowing i let you held me back. That you were always a negative + now i know.

I'm pretty sure i'm okay

I'm pretty sure i'm okay now. FINALLY.

Some think i'm delusional, some

Some think i'm delusional, some are supportive, but both know i've decided to change my life. <3 to my friends.

Older does not = wiser

Older does not = wiser

I. Am. A. Complete. Idiot.

I. Am. A. Complete. Idiot.

Happy birthday to me!

Happy birthday to me!

i meant to post this at the 31 day mark

but i forgot.

so instead i'm gonna pat myself on the back at 33 days (that would be today) since i quit smoking.

yes, i am very proud of myself.

thanks to the people who kept encouraging me to quit and those who kept reminding me that i did not need to give in to the cravings that i thought would make me a murderer that first week. i couldn't have done it without you. <3