i will always remember this song

as being one of the few that always makes me feel like Chicago was a good idea.

be careful what you wish for...

y'know, once upon a time, i asked for something that seemed so simple at that moment. my wish?

"if i can have nothing else, please just give a little illusion that the ending is not so predictable."

that's where those few seemingly special people came in. something to distract the eye, the mind, the heart... all of it... from the truth that i will still end up alone.

on the other hand, at least being alone means there is no one to disappoint, no one to hurt, no one to hurt me.

i suppose that with all this time i have stretching before me, i should be doing something to fill it up with good things for me that do not require anyone else.

ORD > MEM > LIT

i managed to make it home to arkansas for the wintery festivities, which so far have included more driving than i have done in 6 months combined, gift-wrapping, bacon, too many cookies, mysterious run-in with estranged family member... twice, coloring my sister's hair, watching deer cross the road, tormenting my parents' dog with a snuggie made for him to wear (though he cowered and behaved as if punished) and lots of annoying people doing last minute shopping like myself.

now that things have settled down and i'm catching up on my google reader stuff, i have entertained myself (as i often do) with the chicago craigslist missed connections. some are so vague and wistful that i can imagine they are for me from someone else. some are just interestingly coincidental in a few details so i create a fun story in my mind to go along with the rest. it's pitiful, sure, but i an a single and relatively attractive girl who spends a lot of time out and about in a big city. doesn't seem unreasonable that someone would notice. so here are some selections:

http://chicago.craigslist.org/chc/mis/2127857212.html

http://chicago.craigslist.org/chc/mis/2128577280.html

http://chicago.craigslist.org/nwc/mis/2128311372.html

http://chicago.craigslist.org/chc/mis/2127700048.html

http://chicago.craigslist.org/chc/mis/2127806410.html

http://chicago.craigslist.org/chc/mis/2126982078.html

http://chicago.craigslist.org/chc/mis/2126880638.html

http://chicago.craigslist.org/chc/mis/2125768949.html

A Follow-Up On Our Good Friend Curtis

For those of you (all both of you) who read my blog, you surely remember my post about Curtis. If you do not, or if you are new to this circus, I am kindly providing you this link so you can catch up.

Now for the latest.

Curtis still likes to send me the occasional random text message. Usually something innocuous such as a simple, "hi." I have learned that if I do not even bother responding, he will generally leave it at that. As annoying as he is, I was content to just leave it alone. However, a couple of nights ago he decided he just had to call me. Yes, an actual call. I know, right? Who does that these days?

Anyhow, I handed the phone to my roommate, Brian and asked him to answer it. So he did and Curtis said nothing but did not hang up for a bit, until Brian said, "Stop calling Brandy."

A few moments later, the following text message exchange happened between them (via my phone):

Curtis: Brandy's a fucking bitch. Fuck you! Tell her to not give out her number if she is going to be a fucking bitch! I don't like wasting my time on assholes.

Brian: you need to grow up and stop texting her.

Curtis: Dude it's right I'm older than your cliche but I'm not given to know my age like you see it cuz I'm living inside feeling the vibe that's not aged knowing full well I would fuck your lights out. So keep the bullshit of limitations to yourself. I guess you like young ignorant men when it comes to loving a woman.

Brian: do you realize how creepy old man you are?

And that was that. I do believe that Curtis was intending his last message for me and not Brian, but it's funny either way. I am sure this is not the last I will hear from him, but I do expect a good week or two of silence before he attempts this again.